Sober(...)

Can´t go down on every step
can´t believe every fault i make

i will loose my desobidience

throw away what i so respect

i am just an imbecil

i throw away everything that made me strong

i am just a wicked liar

lies reflect the image of myself

throwing the sober , expelding the conquer

why can i not be sober?

why can i not be over?

why am i just a shadow?

i lost my abbility to love you

you loose the grace to embrace

there´s no love in pain

there´s no love in fear

there is no ending pain

i´m no longer crouch in your silky toes

these are bloody winters

these blurry days

no ringfingers

no usefull tries

i lost my abbility to love you

you loose the grace to embrace

there´s no love in pain

there´s no love in fear

there is no ending pain

i´m going home

please let me ascending

give me my wings

give them back to me

it´s to blurry to see the light

i might pick up the knife

i will brought back to life

setting free those thousand monkeys
locked long enough, alone at the attic

why can i not be sober?